i've been in love once. the day i find out that i love him, that's when i know, i will never love someone as much as i love him. he made me feel so happy, he made me love being myself. but at some point, things drift off and he wasn't the person i thought he were.
as we drift apart, and time pass me by, i realize that he's just a human. human make mistakes. that's our nature. that's when i realized all his efforts to make things better, but i was blinded by his mistakes and i forgot how much he made me happy, so i pushed him away. and something happened, he got an amnesia, and he's forgotten all about me. not even my nickname.
it's almost a year since he told me about it, but i have to admit, that there's still somewhere deep down in my heart, that my feelings for him is still there. and i know this is absurd, but yeah.
im more in love with our memories than the person he is now, which i barely even know since we haven't talk for months, so i guess, it's time to move on.
i know i get very lonely sometimes, and remembering him makes me feel less alone, makes me feel, there was someone who made me feel complete, and i'm just in love with the guy who's in my past. not the present.
i've got tons of advices and so far, every time i feel sucks, i hold on to one advice. it was from someone who happens to appear when i drift off from my first love. he makes me feel that it is possible to fall for someone else after my first love. but he's like the wind. he come, brushes my hair softly, makes me cold for awhile, and he goes.
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