rambling

i don't know why a lot of people said that i'm "pendiam" . seriously ? but but i don't think i am "pendiam". yes if we are not that close, or just met, I am "pendiam" because i am socially awkward and and I dunno what to say or how to start a conversation or or how to make our conversation interesting or or everything in between. so i choose to just shut my mouth up and listen to what you and other people are saying. sometimes i don't even listen, i'm just... you know. minding my own business. drifted in my own world, blocking you and everyone else and i guess that is why i am always the last person to know about anything. unless what you were talking about caught my attention, then you will get my full attention. if it's not, it's otherwise. oh okay what am i talking about o.o