change

i want to be a better person. and i am trying, very hard, to be that "better person" i'm trying to be. i'm trying to be positive, sincere, hardworking.. anything good you can ever think of. but it's really hard you know. there must be something that makes me think negatively, makes me over-think that leads to a big mess. there must be someone who make me do things without sincere. you know, that sucks. it turn things the other way round, just like a cycle. it's like, no matter how good i'm trying to be, in the end i'm back to square one, i'm back to the old, lame, me. i'm trying my best not to turn it to a cycle, but can just everyone give me the chance to do that ? pretty please ? *sigh