reasons to believe

whenever i said to people , i am single and have never been in a relationship before , they will all go "eh tipu laahhhhh !". no kidding . some of them trust me , some of them doubt it , some of them choose not to believe . honestly , from the bottom part of my heart , i have once been in a 'main-main' type of relationship , that lasts for about ... uhmmm .. less than 15 minutes ? HAHA. so , yeahh , but if both of us was being serious , i think it could have last longer than that . LOL . come think about it , does that even consider ever being in a relationship ? i guess not.

do you want to know why i've never been in any ? it is not that i am lesbian or bi . it's because of , i have never met a guy that can make me say , 'he's the one' . not yet . most guys i knew are either my friends (which 50% of them are nice guys) or jerks who aren't my type .

from my point of view , *sorry if you're a guy and i offend you with this* but i think all guys are an expert at only one thing : breaking a girl's heart . all they ever do when they're in a relationship is to break their significant other's heart , or toy with their feelings . you can say that i am being prejudice . i admit , for this part , i am being prejudice .

and that is the main reason why i make myself stay away from being in a relationship . because i don't want to get hurt . i am afraid that i choose the wrong guy , and that guy will only turn out to be a disaster in my life . i don't want to be fooled by an idiot .

besides haven't met the right person , afraid of getting hurt , i also have trust issues . i don't trust guys . it's kind of hard to trust them , they could be a professional liar and a sweet talker at the same time . that's why , when a guy flirts me , or compliments me , or sweet talk me ; I WILL NEVER TRUST YOU . i don't care if you swear or whatsoever , but sorry , i won't trust you . BUT , it depends though . i know how to differentiate between an honest compliment , or if you're just sweet talking .

i think that's it for now . so , is there anybody out there who wants to prove me that i was wrong ? *facepalm* you're talking to yourself , N . -,-